I am strong, I am invincible

I got hung up on the “Blog Like Crazy” challenge when I hit the prompt “Why Do You Love Being a Woman?” Javacia Harris Bowser, founder of See Jane Write and creator of this challenge, wrote, “That’s a simple question, but one that most likely has a complicated answer. So let’s write a blog post about it. Special thanks to Evette Dionne for this idea. Check out her post on a similar question: http://evettedionne.com/2012/11/15/appreciatewomanhood.”

A few weeks ago, my buddy Alex and I left the office for one of our regular trips to my favorite coffee shop when the differences between men and women came up in conversation. I don’t remember what prompted that, but Alex and I quickly agreed that men and women are different, are naturally inclined to be strong in different areas than one another (although there are certainly exceptions) and we think that’s OK.

In the year-plus that I’ve regularly practiced yoga, I’ve been amazed to discover my own strength. Men tend to be better built for physical strength, but I’ve built up my capacity through an awful lot of chatarungas, down dogs and crows. As I’ve done so, I’ve been reminded of my emotional and mental strength.

At the same time, I embrace many “traditional female roles.” I happen to enjoy cooking very much. My boyfriend rarely cooks. I love bringing food over to his house because I enjoy preparing it, and I enjoy sharing it. Though there was a time when I was cautioned against that, I’ve embraced being who I am, and cooking for others is part of that.

I love that being a woman doesn’t mean one specific thing or another. I love that I was born into a country where women have the right to vote. I love that I’m in a country where women have the same rights as men. I love that women are each unique. I love that I have the freedom to be me.

So who are you now when you are alone?

I live one mile from the hospital where I was born, but nearly 500 miles from the city where I was raised. My parents, siblings and I moved to Jacksonville, Fla., in 1988, leaving behind the city where my parents grew up. When we got to Florida and didn’t have a palm tree in our yard, I was certain it meant we should turn around and head back to Alabama.

It took 15 years, but I returned to Alabama in 2003. And in the nearly decade since, I’ve found that my family history is still all over this city. I’ve had Vulcan Park and Museum on the mind a lot lately, and whenever I think of that most visible landmark, I think of my namesake. When my Pepaw, Carl Eugene Vann, died, the family asked that in lieu of flowers, donations be made to either Vulcan or TEARS Animal Rescue. (Pepaw would love my cat Mac, and I’m sure she would be obsessed with him as well. He always had a way with animals.)

When Birmingham magazine ran its annual cutest pet contest last summer, one of the staff favorites was a litter of kittens from a momma cat who was rescued at South Highland Presbyterian Church. It wasn’t a surprise when I realized the owner of those cats knew my Uncle Joe, who was there the night momma was found.

One of my best buddies at work is a fellow animal lover who has known my Aunt Laura for about as long as I’ve been alive. Joey and Veronica Kennedy have long ties to Birmingham magazine and my family, and I feel like they’ve become extended family. (They’re also particularly adept at adopting people.)

This summer, a friend of the Kennedys and mine realized that my Pepaw’s brother, who we call Uncle Andy, is her Papaw’s best friend. When she asked her Papaw if he knew Andy’s brother Carl, his response was, “You mean Sorghum?” If he knew my Pepaw’s nickname, then I’m betting he knew Pepaw fairly well.

Although I haven’t yet lured my parents or siblings back to Birmingham, this city is where the roots of my family tree are concentrated. I can’t put my finger on what makes Birmingham my home, but perhaps it’s just that my DNA is tied up in this town.

This #bloglikecrazy topic was to write about family. With the holidays upon us, it’s often on our minds, and I’m glad I got to see my parents and brother over Thanksgiving. Today’s subject line is from the Sandra McCracken song “Family Name.” 

There’s only four seasons, and this one’s almost gone

I’m still gradually playing along with #bloglikecrazy, a daily blogging effort from Javacia of the Writeous Babe Project and local women’s writing group See Jane Write. The prompts Javacia offered were intended for November, but I started late and have been quick to take a day (or more!) off from writing when I’ve needed breathing room or the extra space in my schedule. The next prompt is “bloggers night out,” which asks me to write about an event happening in my town.

And there’s the challenge. Even in a month more overrun with holiday parties than anything, there’s tons happening in the ‘ham. Every Thursday around 9 a.m., I go on Birmingham Mountain Radio to share the weekend’s agenda with listeners. And nearly every week, I remind listeners that if they’re bored, they’re not paying attention.

One of the holiday parties I’m invited to this weekend is that of Hops 4 Honeys, a women’s beer club. I tell people that it’s a bit like a book club, except the discussion revolves around beer. And the women who are part of this club are an awful lot of fun and great conversationalists. (Learn more by emailing hops4honeys@gmail.com or requesting to join the group on Facebook.)

I’m also excited about next weekend, when Jeffrey Bützer and T.T. Mahony perform Vince Guraldi’s “A Charlie Brown Christmas” at Bottletree. I finally bought the soundtrack to this Christmas classic earlier this month, and it has been such a soothing soundtrack to my trips around town. Tickets are $10, and if you stick around after the show, you can join in the Friday On My Mind dance party.

I’m also craving a trip to an Alabama Symphony Orchestra performance. Prior to this year, I had only attended ASO special events, whether those were its Symphony at 7 series (designed to attract younger listeners who aren’t regular symphony goers) or partnerships with groups such as Black Jacket Symphony. But this fall I attended the symphony’s performance of Tchaikovsky’s Symphony No. 5, and I fell in love with the music. Classical music is one of those things I enjoy when I encounter it, but it has never been something I’ve been well versed in. I’m eager to learn more, and the remainder of this month offers a few options: “Handel’s Messiah” this weekend, and “New Year’s Eve: A Viennese Celebration” on Dec. 31. And of course, 2013 is packed with options.

Those are a few upcoming events that are exciting me. What’s on your calendar?

Today’s title comes from Joe Purdy’s “Come Back Down.” 

Ain’t that the song we’d sing in the car, drivin’ downtown

Reading: Tonight I read “King of the South,” an article about sports talk radio host Paul Finebaum, in the current issue of the New Yorker. I interviewed Paul in 2007, and I was admittedly starstruck. The man controls the blood pressure of half the people in this state! I was tickled when, later that week, a friend called and asked if I had talked to Paul Finebaum recently. Apparently he referenced a conversation we had while on the air, and my friend thought it sounded like something I would say. (I would like to add “paraphrased on the Paul Finebaum Radio Network” to my resume, along with my 2004 College Football Pick ‘Em victory, if I only had more space.)

This morning, I read “4:52 on Christmas Morning,” a New York magazine story about a house fire that killed five people last year. It was a horrifying story, but well written and reported.

Next up, I’m reading “The Invention of Hugo Cabret” by Brian Selznick in advance of a bookish gathering I’m hosting next week. I’m tempted to try and read “The Hobbit” before the movie is released (and my book club goes to see it for our December meeting). I’ve never read any Tolkein. But considering the number of library books on my floor, I think that one may have to wait.

Listening: I picked up “A Charlie Brown Christmas” soundtrack by Vince Guaraldi Trio at Rite Aid this weekend, so I’ve been driving around town with some very pleasant tunes. I’m excited about this show at Bottletree in two weeks, when Jeffrey Bützer and T.T. Mahony will perform the album in its entirety.

Smelling: OK, weird category, I know. But tonight I took a bath with Aveda Stress-Fix bath salts, and it was awesome.

Watching: I’m on a “New Girl” kick. Zooey Deschanel’s character is irresistibly likable, and I want her entire wardrobe. Except the maroon-and-pink striped sweater she wore on an episode a few weeks ago. I already have that.

Making me happy: Being surrounded by people who I care about, work I find satisfying (and coworkers I care about!),  my cat, piles of books, the holiday season, coffee, a board-game night, life.

And this video.

Today’s subject line is from Rascal Flatts’ “These Days.” Sorry. It’s stuck in my head now. The 16th #bloglikecrazy prompt was to share what you’re into currently. 

Four Simple Goals

I’ve been participating in #bloglikecrazy at my own pace. I didn’t begin this challenge to blog every day in November until halfway through that month, and though I’ve blogged most days since I began, I haven’t worried about taking a few off here and there.

The next prompt is to set four simple goals for the rest of the year. (The prompt was intended to be addressed on Nov. 14, so there would have been a little more time left in the year. Oh well.) I always find December challenging, so perhaps this is perfect timing.

First, I want to remain present this month. December is so crazy, with deadlines at work made more difficult by sources becoming hard to get in touch with during the holidays, with Christmas parties, with expectations for the season. Since I’ve been in journalism, I’ve dreaded this time of year. But I’m in better spirits so far this month, and I’m aiming to remain present in the day to day rather than wishing my way into January.

I also want to stay calm. The aforementioned deadlines have stressed me out in the past. Because so many people take the week between Christmas and New Year’s off, the deadline for our February issue is usually the year’s most challenging. I’ve tried to plan this year with that in mind, while also warning new staff members that this is how things to tend to go. I’m preparing the best I can while aiming to accept the rest.

I want to (need to!) stop shopping. I finished my Christmas shopping weeks ago, and the gifts are wrapped and under the tree at my house and my parents’ house in Florida. But all of the sales, the promotions, the holiday craft bazaars can be tempting, and often result in me buying more gifts–or buying for myself. I’ve got plenty, and I know my friends and family aren’t concerned with me spending more money on them.

Finally, I want to prepare for a quieter 2013. One of my weaknesses is overextending myself, and I’m already taking steps away from that for next year. But even as I turn down one commitment, it’s tempting for me to replace it with another. I’d like to spend the remainder of this month remembering how valuable “me time” is, and continue to prioritize that in the future.

Leaving a Legacy

A couple of years ago, my roommate was working on a five-year plan. The idea frightened me: What should my goals be? Where did I want to reside? How would I get from point A to point B?

I’ve achieved most of my career goals earlier than I expected. When I worked in newspapers, my aim was to report for the Birmingham News by the time I turned 30; I started work there the month before I hit 25. I interned at Birmingham magazine while I was in grad school, and when I left I thought it would be a great job if they were ever hiring. Tomorrow is my six-year anniversary. After I’d been at the magazine for a while, I knew I wanted to become managing editor someday. I assumed that role in July 2009 (days after my 28th birthday).

Now, my career goals focus more on what the magazine can achieve than what I can achieve. We were finalists in the general excellence category for the 2011 City and Regional Magazine Association awards, and I literally danced with joy around Urban Standard when I found out. Earlier this month I submitted for the 2012 awards, and I can’t wait to find out if we’ll be finalists in any categories this year. (Finalists are announced in the spring, and the winners are announced at the conference in May 2013.)

My copy of "Fading Ads of Birmingham" was the first that author Charles Buchanan and photographer Jonathan Purvis autographed. (Photo by Carrie Beth Buchanan)
My copy of “Fading Ads of Birmingham” was the first that author Charles Buchanan and photographer Jonathan Purvis autographed. (Photo by Carrie Beth Buchanan)

And, OK, I do have some career goals left on the table: Someday I want to see my byline in Esquire and the New York Times Book Review, and I want to write a book, like almost every other writer out there. (Yesterday I saw the fruits of another dream come to life: Charles Buchanan, who I hired in 2010 to write an article about the “ghost signs” in town, has published a book on that subject. The publisher approached him after the Birmingham magazine article. I am ridiculously proud to have made some small contribution to this book.)

However, I’m no longer willing to compromise my personal life to achieve those career goals. For years, work came before everything else. You know you have a problem when you work in a 17-story building that includes multiple law offices, and yet the security guard recognizes you well enough to lecture you about working too much. I love my job, and I work hard. But my work isn’t the primary mark I want to make on this earth.

While discussing this with a friend about a year and a half ago, he asked me a few simple questions: “What neighborhood do you want to live in? What do you want to be known for? What does your life at home look like?”

My answers were equally straightforward. I want to live in Birmingham. I want to be known for caring about people. I want to have a family (whether that’s a husband or a husband and kids–we’ll see). As I said to that friend then, “I’m more concerned with the quality of my work than the details of it. I want to do something that’s meaningful to me. (I’m) more concerned about caring for people than having my name recognized.”

In recent years, I’ve gotten better at maintaining that balance, but I believe I’ll walk that tightrope for the rest of my life.

The 13th #bloglikecrazy prompt was about leaving a legacy. I am slowly but surely working my way through these topics!

Take every chance you dare, I’ll still be there

I’ve been gradually but enthusiastically participating in the #bloglikecrazy challenge, administered by my friend Javacia Harris Bowser and embraced by the local women’s writing group she founded, See Jane Write. I’ve loved receiving Javacia’s daily prompts, and it’s been a wonderful way to get writing (for myself) again. But today’s prompt has stumped me.

Javacia asked us to write about inspiration found in mundane moments. I know what she’s talking about–haven’t we all had those simple moments that have resulted in an “a-ha!” insight? But sometimes, it’s hard to view anything as mundane.

One of my best friends is moving this week. We met in college, when I was a senior and he was a freshman, and we’ve lived near each other for the better part of 10 years. I’m a big fan of “When Harry Met Sally,” and I’ll admit that having a best friend who is a man has sometimes been a little different. He’s not my only best friend, but he’s definitely one of the people who understands me best. After more than a decade of friendship, he’s more like family than a friend.

That’s pretty mundane, right? Meeting people and hitting it off is a pretty regular occurrence, especially in college. But every friendship is magical, especially when it stands through time.

So I may be in denial that he’s moving. I’m so excited for him, because I think the job he’s leaving for is a great opportunity, and he’ll be closer to his family. But friends are a treasure, and I’m sorry to see another one move away.

Today’s subject line is from Nickel Creek’s “When You Come Back Down.”

Dear Sir or Madam, will you read my book?

Step one in becoming a writer: Pick up your pen.

Or your keyboard. Or your smartphone. Whatever. Grab your typewriter if it makes you feel good. Just start writing.

Step two: Write some more.

You know what they say about practice, and while I don’t believe “perfect” writing exists, you’re only going to get better by writing, writing, writing.

Step three: Read good writing.

Yes, it can be overwhelming, humbling, to read a great work. I often think, “Who do I think I am? What do I have to offer compared to this?” and I know I’m not alone in that. But reading good writing can also teach you an awful lot about what good writing is, and that’s essential if you’re going to craft such work yourself. Pay attention. Notice what you like about it, and study how the writer got there. If it’s a journalistic piece, consider the questions the reporter may have asked to uncover those details. Heck, if you think the writer may be accessible, reach out to them and ask what went into the piece.

Step four: Find a good editor.

Even a very good editor needs an editor. This is something of a mantra around my office, and I’ve read too many books and article where a good editor could have elevated a piece from passable to masterful. Find someone who can offer you honest insight into your work, who isn’t afraid to give you constructive criticism that will help you fine tune a story. And pay attention to the changes they make–these will help you learn and improve for the future.

Step five: Repeat.

Today’s title is the first line of the Beatles’ “Paperback Writer.” The 11th #bloglikecrazy prompt was to write a how-to entry. I think my past interns and students could attest that this is advice I offer frequently!

I’d call myself so very lucky just to have some company to share a cup of tea with me

One of the things I’ve most regretted about my time in college is that I didn’t date more while I was there. When else in life do you have a group of people around at all times, with so many opportunities to get to know one another? Don’t get me wrong, I’m quite happily unmarried at 31. I’ve learned a lot about myself in these intervening years, and I’m very happy with my dating life. But in the past, when I’ve started dating new people, I’ve often mourned the lack of context that is typical in post-college life.

Maybe that’s one of the reasons “You’ve Got Mail” has continued to captivate me after all these years. I saw the movie in theaters when it was released in 1998, and I’ve watched it so many times since that it’s one of the few films from which I can quote line after line. Without fail, Kathleen and Joe’s romance grabs hold of my heart.

I’m a sucker for the written word, and I love watching these two fall for each other in large part via email. (In 1998, it didn’t occur to me that they were essentially having an e-affair. I guess that’s the beauty and naivete of the Internet not yet being ubiquitous.) Their words reveal their character, and they gradually come to know and trust each other.

I learned something about online dating from that movie, I suppose, although it wasn’t centered around a dating website. I’ve tried several such sites, and in fact I met my boyfriend through match.com. And just as “You’ve Got Mail” reminds me on every viewing, I’ve learned that you can tell quite a bit about someone from his words. But of course, “real life” context (as Kathleen and Joe get quite a bit of in the movie) sweetens and deepens that sense of understanding.

The 10th #bloglikecrazy prompt was to rewatch a favorite movie and write about a lesson it’s taught you. I didn’t have time to rewatch “You’ve Got Mail” this weekend–there was football on!–but boy, do I love that movie. The subject line is a lyric from “The Puppy Song” by Harry Nilsson, which plays during the film’s title sequence.

Well you know, we all want to change the world

Next year will mark my 10th year of blogging. When I began, it was partly because I had taken a bit of time off of school and I needed something to keep me engaged. This was also just before I began my master’s program in journalism, and if you look back at those early entries, I think my lack of training shows. My blog isn’t a journalistic effort, but my writing is considerably more efficient now.

But now, I write for a living and spend a portion of my work life blogging. So why do I continue to write in this blog?

There have definitely been times that I’ve put my blog on the back burner, in part because I do spend so much of my energy writing elsewhere. I started blogging for fun, and I don’t want this site to become a burden. That’s a grace I offer myself, and the reason why I sometimes let months pass without updating.

So what’s the point? Well, I could argue that it’s to my advantage to keep my name out there. We say that your name is your brand, and there’s truth to that. As a journalist in this increasingly digital world, it’s important that my work be easy to find and that it reflect some knowledge of technology and digital media.

That’s all true enough, and reason enough to keep blogging. But I’m really more interested in this platform because it gives me a space to air out my thoughts and join in conversation with those interested. My journalistic work isn’t about me and my opinions (nor should it be!). My journal doesn’t offer room for interaction (and again, it shouldn’t). This blog doesn’t focus on any specific theme, but it allows me a space in between, a “third place” in my writing. (Yes, I just ripped off Starbucks’ terminology.)

It’s a loosely defined mission, but it’s mine. And in it, I find space to flex my writing muscles, which, after all these years, remains one of my favorite things to do.

The ninth #bloglikecrazy prompt was to write a mission for your blog. The subject line comes from the Beatles’ “Revolution.” If you didn’t already know that, we need to talk.