Let the phone ring, let’s go back to sleep

As reported to a friend via email half an hour ago…

If I were to look in the mirror right now, I’d see a face still surrounded by bedhead. My unmade bed is covered with roughly thirty articles detailing the contributions of weblogs to journalism and thoughts on media ownership. A plastic cup, empty save for the ring of OJ that graces its bottom, sits on my nightstand. A pile of highlighted and otherwise marked up articles is growing beside my bed. This is my Tuesday morning. (It’s a beautiful world.)

I’m paying $400 an hour for this?!

Twenty-two years of experience have taught me at least one thing: life doesn’t always happen as you expect.

I’m bored – not because I’m doing homework, and not because I’ve been home most of the day. I’m just restless – again. I’m tired of school, and I want to live my life, not study the lives of others.

Maybe this is a problem that never really goes away.

Graduate school isn’t shaping up to be what I thought it would. I came here because I wanted to sharpen my writing skills. That has happened, but that’s been secondary to my coursework. Most of my time is spent learning how to research, studying communication theories, and poring over history books.

That’s not how I planned to spend my money.

I suppose that’s poor planning on my part. I’ve had the program description handy for more than a year and a half. I knew that these core classes were part of the deal.

But no – read these course descriptions. This is the sort of stuff I thought I was signing up to study – but none of these courses have been offered in the past two or three semesters, nor are they available this spring.

JN 512 Editorial Writing and Function. Three hours. Study of the role, function, and construction of editorials and practice in editorial writing.

JN 515 Magazine Writing and Editing. Three hours. Writing and marketing of magazine articles. Study of technical, industrial, employee, and general-circulation magazines.

JN 520 Advanced Editing and Design of Publications. Three hours. Lecture and laboratory. Study, research, applications, and production of traditional and online newspapers, magazines, and related media, including managing and organizing newsrooms, graphics departments, and production departments. Demographics and research of audiences for different news and information products; formulation of policy.

JN 525 Literary Journalism I. Three hours. Studies in nonfiction. Includes extensive writing in this genre.

JN 526 Literary Journalism II. Three hours. Studies in nonfiction. Includes extensive writing in this genre.

The only “professional” classes offered during the year I intend to spend in this program are Creative Non-Fiction (which I’ll take next semester!) and Depth Reporting (which didn’t fit into my schedule this semester.) I feel cheated.

I didn’t come here for an “academic” education – I don’t want to be a professor. I want to be a journalist. This program offered me that opportunity, but now that I’m halfway through a semester, I’ve realized that it isn’t here.

I’m not planning to drop out – this time! I’m just disappointed. Within the next year or so, this program is making a change that promises to transform it into everything I had hoped for in graduate study.

Meanwhile, I got the raw end of the deal.

And you people wonder why I don’t update more often than I do…

Friday, October 3, 2003
{my “day off”}

6:30 A.M. – Hit snooze
6:39 A.M. – Hit snooze
6:48 A.M. – Attempt to bounce cheerfully out of bed. At least manage to get out of bed and into full upright position.
6:49 A.M. – Time to get ready
7:20 A.M. – Crap. I don’t know where I’m going this morning. Get online to find directions.
7:40 A.M. – Grab a granola bar and hit the road.
8:00 A.M. – Escorted to journalism class by a CHS student. I don’t think I’ve ever been the racial minority before.
8:05 A.M. – Spend almost two hours assisting journalism class with newspaper
10:00 A.M. – Home. Check email, schedule appointments to meet with professors for a class project.
11:00 A.M. – Is it only eleven? I’m wiped. Naptime.
12:00 noon – Hit snooze
12:09 P.M. – Dang it. Reluctantly roll out of bed. Check email. Change away message – “I don’t wanna do homework!”
12:20 P.M. – Lunch
1:00 P.M. – Time to hit the libraries
1:30 P.M. – Search Reading Room for materials related to history research paper
2:30 P.M. – Read journalism education resources; take notes for writing summaries
3:00 P.M. – Read history article; search library for history paper materials
3:45 P.M. – Laugh as I walk down the library steps, which are serving as a makeshift stage for an ambitious actor
3:47 P.M. – Take a breather as I walk to my car; this is college life.
3:50 P.M. – Graham calls; accept assignment for newspaper story
4:15 P.M. – Final library stop of the day
4:20 P.M. – Read yet another history chapter
4:50 P.M. – Reward myself with carmel apple cider and purchase coffee creamer at Target
5:15 P.M. – Check email; learn that I need to spend tomorrow in Monroeville, AL. Must do homework.
5:30 P.M. – Eat dinner, watch Friends
6:30 P.M. – Write papers
7:30 P.M. – Write papers while watching second half of Miss Match
8:00 P.M. – Write papers
10:00 P.M. – Print papers
10:15 P.M. – Reward self by reading latest Entertainment Weekly on front porch; realize that even my leisure time is consumed with work. Such is life in the media. Swoon over Josh Lucas photo.
10:45 P.M. – Discuss innie, outtie, and in-betweenie belly buttons with Alisa.
10:50 P.M. – Get ready for bed
11:00 P.M. – Bore you with this entry
11:45 P.M. – Set alarm clock for 8 A.M. – I get to SLEEP IN tomorrow. And then drive.

Yes, yesterday’s post was infinitely better. But now do you realize why I can’t write daily?

Jack of all trades, master of none

Subtitle: A real update, because they’ve been quite foofy as of late 😉

That phrase has been rattling around in my mind for quite some time now – in fact, dating back to my college graduation. It’s been torturing me with its taunting words, implying that while I’m quite good at a number of things, nothing that I do is stellar.

This week, I’ve overcome that demon.

As it happens, I do have a varied set of interests. I love football, but I’m not so knowledgable to be a commentator (much less a player!) Those of you who read this site regularly have noticed my passion for music – but those of you who spend time with me “in real life” know that I can’t sing, play, or write. I briefly toyed with the idea of a career in interior design. I love the stuff. I’ve even suffered mocking for my “idea notebook.” 🙂 But again – I’m not that good. I’m an excellent cook, but not a gourmet chef. You get the picture.

This is a story about my triumph, not my shortcomings, so I’ll get on with the story.

The conclusion that I’ve come to is that this is why I’m a journalist. Because of my love for all of these things, I’m capable of writing an article about them. I’m an excellent researcher and a darn good interviewer (if I do say so myself!), and these skills allow me to get to the heart of the subject matter. I’ve been told that I have a grace to my writing; at least several of y’all list that as the reason why you repeatedly visit this site. 😉 Besides all that, I’ve realized over the past year or so that I love to learn.

Stop laughing, Heather. Seriously – grad school has done wonders for me. I’m just as picky as I ever was, but after almost 18 years of education, I now know that I enjoy learning if the topic’s right.

So there you have it – I’m a journalist, and I love it. Deadlines stress me out, but they’re moments that I thrive on. I love seeing my name in print, and I take pride in my work. I’ve seen marked improvements in my writing this semester. My interviews have gone from very matter-of-fact to drawing out the meat of my articles. In short, I’m growing.

Somewhere along the way, I also decided to grow up. 🙂 Moving to Alabama did a lot of that for me. When it’s time, you know it – perhaps in a way similar to how people claim you “just know” when someone is “the one.”

Really, what defines a “grown up” anyway? Relevant Magazine once pointed me to a study that reported that most Americans consider the age 26 to be a signifier of this milestone. “Good,” I thought to myself. “I have four years before I have to stop saying ‘when I grow up.'”

My friend Scott, on the other hand, argued that both he and I are already “grown ups.” Neither of us have reached the ripe old age of 26 (though he’s only months away). But in his opinion, we’re there – or at the very least, he is. We’ve both graduated from college, and he has (what I like to call) a “real” job. I’m working towards a master’s degree – that’s also a rather “adult” thing to do.

Of course, Scott also explained to me, “I’m grown up, but I think when I’m married, I’ll really be grown up.” I laughed. What if I never get married – will I never be a grown up? What if I get married when I’m forty – does it take that long to become an adult?

For me, the marking point in becoming a “grown up” has been moving over five hundred miles away from my parents. Though I’ve been living apart from them for four years, I still had a solid support system at Florida State. It was almost as though I never ventured out on my own. Though I developed many new friendships, I entered with the safety net of people that I knew from high school. I made a move toward independence, but it was in baby steps. That was what I needed then. Not so now.

I’m twenty-two, mature (most of the time 😉 ), single, and on my own. This is the time to explore life and chase dreams – and I’m doing just that. I love it.

In that, I’ve begun to find my niche. I’m preparing to apply for summer internships and I’ve been beefing up my portfolio (which now looks quite professional, thanks to a sassy number from Office Depot.) I’ve been refining my writing skills. In fact, I’ve even begun to enjoy my research. I’ve become quite the little adult.

Still, I retain a few child-like qualities. I’m young, and I relish that. I feel like an adult as I write this. My hair and make up have been styled, I’ve been up since 6:30 A.M., and I’m writing in what I hope is a coherent fashion. But I look down and I’m reminded of my youth. My feet are propped on a camping chair, and googly eyed pig socks are smiling back at me. My cup of coffee and I are quite content in my front porch rocking chair on this Thursday afternoon. My weekend has begun.

Even that weekend retains traces of my newfound adulthood, though. After I finish sharing my thoughts with you, a lengthy to-do list will become my master. I’ll be forced back into the process of maturation – but I intend to enjoy each minute of it.

Today, this is what my life is about. I’ve been brought to this front porch in small-town Alabama with great purpose in mind. While I work, I’ll dream a little, realizing that I’m becoming the woman that God intends me to be.

Did I mention I love this job?

My biggest accomplishment this week: Interviewing Ryan Newell, lead guitarist of Sister Hazel

CJ: You guys got your start in a college town. How did that help or hinder your career?
RN: Helped ‘ especially in SE, when we were coming up as a band, there was a real community of people who wanted to hear original music, and that started out in the whole college scene. When people went out to see bands, at that point, they elected to see original bands that had their own material, buy their independent CDs, build a fan base. College students tend to listen to music that’s not all over the CD, so that really helped us out.

CJ: To date, you still play a lot of college towns. Why is that?
RN: I think we still have a connection with the college scene. Even though we’ve had radio play and videos and stuff, I still think there’s definitely an underground community of fans that still like the band. They come to multiple shows ’cause our shows are different from night to night. We tend to improvise and we don’t play the same set. We still have the indie credit we used to have. Actually we’re an indie band again, so we go where people want to hear us basically.

CJ: How are college towns different than venues in bigger cities?
RN: Fortunately we have a chance to play all over the place. I think the main difference in college towns is that obviously most of the people are younger. In the big cities, you get the whole range of people ages 20 ‘ 12- 60 coming to our shows. Usually in college towns, it’s ages between 18 and late 20s, so it tends to be a little bit more wilder.

CJ: Advantages? Disadvantages?
RN: Both are great environments to play, we just love to play in front of people ‘ whoever comes, comes. We don’t really have a preference one way or the other.

CJ: Why do you play Tuscaloosa, in particular, as frequently as you do? (This is the second time within the six months that I’ve lived here!)
RN: I think it’s a combination of both ‘ we play year round, so we play everywhere a lot. It’s not really one place in particular ‘ we are playing and playing and playing, that’s what we do for a living. That might seem like a lot if you’re sitting in Tuscaloosa, but keep in mind that we’re doing that all over the place. We certainly have a spot in our hearts for the se, ’cause that’s where the band came from, and it’s certainly fun to come back to those towns. We’ll play the SE more than the rest.

CJ: I have to ask, since y’all are from Gainesville. Are you big Gator fans?
RN: Huge Gator fans (except drummer ‘ who likes the Hurricanes.)

CJ: How have y’all progressed as a band over the years?
RN: Musically ‘ I would say anytime you’re in a band for almost ten years with the same people, you really start to tune into everybody’s gifts and what they bring to the table, and I thinkw e have definitely defined our roles in the band. Things seem to work a lot smoother in the studio. We’ve grown as musicians from playing show after show after show. We know what works as a band and what doesn’t We’re technically better on our instruments, our songwriting is better. Just like anything else, the more you do it, the better you get at it. We’re at the top of our game at this point.

CJ: How was the recording experience different, now that you’re independent again?
RN: We actually, recording our second major label record, we went out to LA, had a big budget, big producer, and we started to over-think the record. We ended up scrapping almost half the material at the beginning of that recording session just ’cause we were over-thinking things and coming up with a sound that wasn’t really true to who we were. Halfway thru the recording that record, we decided that how we sound best in the studio is setting up the instruments and playing live, trying to create the best vibe possible with all of us playing together. We applied that to our studio experience from then on, and that’s how we recorded Chasing Daylight. That’s how we sound best ‘ we go in and we try our best to get a live concert vibe going.

CJ: What is your favorite song that y’all have recorded?
RN: There’s something special in each song we’ve recorded for me ‘ sometimes you wake up wanting to hear easy listening ‘ depends on what you ate for breakfast, if you’re in a fight, if you’re in love ‘ each song brings out different emotions, different from day to day. I can generalize ‘ I’m proud of the way ‘Champagne High’ turned out, ‘Best I’ll Ever Be’ on Chasing Daylight ‘ let’s see ‘ ‘Hopeless’ on Chasing Daylight ‘ really, like I said earlier, there’s parts of each song ‘ that’s like asking you to pick your favorite child.

CJ: What’s in your CD player right now?
RN: Jeff Buckley ‘Grace’ ‘ amazing CD

CJ: What should someone who has never seen y’all before expect on Wednesday night?
RN: Um, I think they can expect a band that doesn’t just play songs from top to bottom ‘ we try to change our set up a lot, improvisation in the middle of the songs (not every single one, but y’know, we try to keep a certain portion of the night spontaneous so it’s not like we’re just repeating same show) see us take chances, see the intimacy of the singer-songwriter type songs, played by a high octane rock band. So you’ll have everything from intimate acoustic moments to electric excitement.

CJ: Will you be playing mostly new stuff, or a mix of stuff from all of your albums?
RN: We certainly play a mix of our stuff, we definitely try to cover most of our records. But the records that we just recorded, we tend to play a little bit more off of those.

Things I have learned from writing my first-ever news article:

1. Editors can be difficult. This hasn’t changed any since my first newspaper experience (Fall 1999 – what do you mean we don’t cover country music because you don’t like it?), but I had forgotten how true it is.

2. Keep your editor happy – he is your boss, after all. (This rule is true even if he’s the same age and education level as you.)

3. It pays to be a jerk. Get on the phone and keep calling those sources, and if they won’t speak with you, email them. You’ve got to get your interview at all costs.

4. Write, edit, and re-write. With writing, there’s always room for improvement. Perfection, in this profession, is a myth.

5. Experience is worthwhile. Sometimes I want to quit, to storm away and say “I don’t have to take this” — but I do have to take it, and I’ll probably be a better journalist for it.