Relevant is my blog

I’m in a hurry to get things done…

…and as a result, I probably won’t be updating here for at least a week.

In the meantime, here’s a few reads to keep you busy. See? I have been writing–just not for you. šŸ˜‰

Read all about the joys and tribulations of my job search

Learn how Derek Webb created one of my favorite “Christian” CDs.

Celebrate my love of all things coffee (well, except mochas–yech!).

Enjoy my ranting and raving about college football (and overlook a small factual error… I’m so embarrassed. To my credit, I did look it up beforehand… I just did a crappy job of verifying. OOPS! Doesn’t change the point, though…)

In the jungle, the mighty jungleā€¦.

Iā€™m sitting in Starbucks (surprise!) and the CD playing is so atrocious I canā€™t concentrate. So much for reading with a latte in an oversize chair.

Look at your calendar. Last I checked, November 17 is too early for Christmas music. (I know this topic is addressed so often itā€™s become trite. Give me a moment.)

Itā€™s worse still when those untimely tunes are crooned loudly and off key! I know the Christmas dĆ©cor and products are intended to boost sales. (And Iā€™m highly susceptible to these ploys. Whenever new merchandise fills the shelves, I rush to examine the brightly colored goods. Iā€™m ready to drop $20 on a set of mugs from the last merchandize blitz.)

However, when the music is this painful, Iā€™m surprised customers arenā€™t running out of the store! The girls studying near me muttered to each other, ā€œThis is horrible.ā€ The song they complained about was followed by another that should have been retired years ago. Thereā€™s no place for ā€œThe Lion Sleeps Tonightā€ in a coffee shopā€”ever.

Finish up your coffee, love, itā€™s getting cold

So I think Iā€™ve figured out the Starbucks secret.

Itā€™s not their ubiquity. Itā€™s not the benefits they offer their employees. Itā€™s not even freshness of products.

Starbucksā€™ appeal is in brainwashing.

Think about it. At least an entire generation has cut their coffee drinking teeth on Starbucks. You may be like me, starting out with a fluffy 16-year-old girl drink and progressing to combinations not even listed on the menu. You drink Starbucks because itā€™s convenient and itā€™s the same in every city.

Given a couple yearsā€”or weeks, depending on the frequency of your visitsā€”the addiction takes hold. You slowly move from a social drinker to brewing a cup a week in your home toā€¦ well, letā€™s be honest. You end up brewing at least two cups a day at home, and you often stop for a latte when youā€™re out. And now that youā€™ve developed a full blown expensive coffee habit, youā€™ve got to determine your favorite local shop. We all know true coffee snobs donā€™t drink corporate coffee!

So you grab an almond latte at Safari Cup during your lunch break. Itā€™s fresher than the French Roast in your Starbucks thermosā€¦ but it doesnā€™t fulfill your craving. The next day, you try a ā€œcinnamon rollā€ from Oā€™Henryā€™s. The blend of cinnamon, caramel and vanilla smells delicious and warms you from the inside out, but it doesnā€™t really compare to the toffee nut latte you wanted this morning. (Everyone should have toffee nut syrup.) Highland Coffee serves organic, fair trade coffeeā€”but itā€™s still more acidic than you prefer.

Thatā€™s it. Starbucks must slip some sort of brainwashing additive into their espresso. You think you prefer the way they roast their beans. You guess itā€™s because pumpkin spice lattes arenā€™t available anywhere else. But youā€™re wrong.

If drinking Starbucks means youā€™re brainwashed, then Iā€™m perfectly content being a zombie. Bring on the toffee nut.

Confessions of a Chick-Lit-A-Holic

Maybe Iā€™m reading too much ā€œchick litā€ these days. That wouldnā€™t be a hard case to make. Staying up past my bedtime to finish the latest from Red Dress Ink has become more habit than guilty pleasure. (I will admit itā€™s not hard to do with a 10:30 bedtime. I treasure my beauty sleep.)

Did you see that? Itā€™s further evidence that chick lit is taking over my brain. Whatā€™s beauty sleep, and why do I need it? Iā€™m 23ā€”far too young for wrinkles, but not old enough to be past acne. I never gave too much thought to my appearance until recent years. I think my attention to name brands and high heeled shoes began somewhere between reading The Devil Wears Prada and enrolling at the University of Alabama.

I know what youā€™re thinkingā€”Tuscaloosa, Alabama, isnā€™t exactly New York or Los Angeles, or even Birmingham (our stateā€™s largest city, which is incidentally more fashion forward than Yankees expect). Tuscaloosa may not be a fashion mecca, but the girls there would convince you otherwise.

Usually I blame it on the Greek community and the sorority girls that always seem dressed to kill. But the problem runs much deeper than that.

Look at Alicia. Weā€™re both second year masterā€™s students at the university. Alicia doesnā€™t have a Greek bone in her body, which is more than I can say for myself. (I briefly portrayed a sorority girl as an undergrad at Florida State. In my defense, the Greek community there is significantly more relaxed than at Alabama.)

Despite Aliciaā€™s ā€œindependentā€ status, sheā€™s a self-declared shoe horse. Maybe she exaggerates a bitā€”Iā€™ve seen her closet and itā€™s not exactly overflowing. But she knows that shoes can make an outfit, and she refers to her favorite Italian shoe designer simply as Enzoā€”as in Angiolini.

So weā€™re not sporting the latest runway stylesā€”like I said, this is Alabama, not New York. And if you want to know the truth, Iā€™m almost strictly a Gap girl. Weā€™ve got stores like Arden B and Bebe in Birmingham, but itā€™s not like I can afford them. (Did you miss that Iā€™m a grad student? Hello, federal loans!) The Gapā€”outlet, that isā€”is more my speed. Besides, Iā€™ve only got something like 99 points to accrue on my Gap card before I ā€œearnā€ a $25 reward certificate.

Like Iā€™ve said, Iā€™ve been reading too much chick lit. Listen to me, rambling on about shopping when you probably donā€™t care a bit. (At least I didnā€™t bore you with the details of how I bought a killer pair of red slingbacks in Atlanta last weekā€¦)

So Iā€™m not a fashion plate, though these Sophie Kinsella books have me thinking like one. Iā€™m fairly fashionable most days, though I love sporting my hot pink Converse All Stars that I think lend me some sort of granola-like street cred.

I left the house this morningā€”er, afternoonā€”with those clumsy basketball shoes completing what can best be described as a grad student uniform. Those shoes are partially hidden by my paint splattered jeans (Gap, of course), which are paired with a black T from my favorite Tallahassee barbecue joint and a white long sleeved thermal shirt (also Gap). With my curly hair in a messy bun and my glasses lending an air of intelligence, I like to think I look the part of an introspective writer. (Or at least a cross between said writer and preppy college student.)

Thatā€™s the weirdā€”yet appealingā€”thing about life as a journalist. Thereā€™s a creative element to the work. Weā€™re wordsmiths, striving to communicate the latest information in an eloquent but straightforward manner. If we play our cards right, we get paid to review whatever tasty morsels of pop culture weā€™ve recently consumed.

On the flip side, weā€™re also business people. We dress up for interviews, and those of us on salary put in the 8-to-5 in bustling corporate buildings. Itā€™s a strangely satisfying dichotomy.

Today Iā€™m somewhere in between. I work two days a week as an intern at a local magazineā€”a job I love, despite no opportunity for advancement. Itā€™s my second internship in as many semesters, and I just know deep down that theyā€™ll prove helpful in the long run. Iā€™m two months and three days from graduation, and my job hunt is in full swing.

Because I have gotten in the habit of viewing my life as a fluffy girl novel, I see the whole thing through rose colored glasses. (I even have such a pair of sunglasses in my sensible sedan!) Great things await, though I admit I donā€™t know what they are.

I suspect that one such thing may be seeing my name in print in my favorite mag du jour. I wrote something like three book reviews and two CD reviews, and the next issue has already been shipped to subscribers. If I knew how soon Iā€™d have a copy in my hands, Iā€™d be counting down the minutes.

Truth is, I never tire of seeing my name in print. Iā€™m not sure if thatā€™s a journalist trait or a me thing, but itā€™s trueā€”not terribly modest, but very true. (I already rushed to the bookstore to see if their shipment had arrived less than 24 hours after it was sent. Optimistic, sure. But the crates of new magazines were still being unloaded. I have plans to check back in several hours.)

See, thatā€™s another characteristic of these books Iā€™ve seen rub off on me. My inner monologue has become terribly self-involved.

I donā€™t like to think Iā€™m a selfish person, though I know itā€™s sometimes true. But Iā€™ve been something of a loner lately. When itā€™s just me and my adoring (and adorable!) calico cat, itā€™s easy to see myself as the main character in some terribly mundane movie.

I ought to be more like the friendly Starbucks barista who just brought a venti ice water to accompany my grande latte. It was an act of kindness that would earn her a bit part in the movie of my life, at best. But her thoughtfulness and friendly conversation deserve more, donā€™t they? I suppose thereā€™s consolation in knowing Iā€™m just an extra in her life story.

My blessings are in front of me

I pulled up to a five bedroom house with a Lexus in the garage and instantly thought I had the directions wrong. Before I could react, my college roommate strolled into the garage and confirmed my location. How can a 23 year old already own a house bigger than my parentsā€™?

(With the help of a well-to-do husband, itā€™s not so hard I guess.)

I quickly began the comparison game. Sheā€™s got this spread; I live with my grandmother and drive a Nissan. Her hair and make up always look just right; I still break out at 23. Sheā€™s got a successful career; Iā€™m still in school.

In some ways, she epitomizes the American dream. Itā€™s easy to compare things that stand out about her with things I donā€™t like about me. But thereā€™s a big difference between what I want and what I need.

Iā€™d be lying if I told you I wouldnā€™t like owning a big house in a ritzy neighborhood and driving a fancy car. I battle against those and other temptations on an almost daily basis, especially as I go through this time of uncertainty and job hunting.

The good news is it sends me back to prayer, seeking God for perspective. The good news is I donā€™t need any of those things. I have a place to live. I have a car to drive. (I rather like my car, actually.) I have a God who orchestrates my future. Therefore, I have security.

And you know, I donā€™t know what the future holds. I hope Iā€™ll begin an exciting (and at least to some degree, successful) career in just a few months. But there are no guarantees.

What is success, anyway? The material trappings money can buy do appeal to me, perhaps because I didnā€™t have a lot of that as a child. (Or perhaps just because Iā€™m human.) But when I conjure up a meaningful career, money doesnā€™t have a lot to do with it.

Instead, Iā€™m looking for a job that is worthwhile. Okay, okay ā€“ thatā€™s vague. You wonā€™t see it going in the ā€œobjectiveā€ section of my resume. (I donā€™t have an ā€œobjectiveā€ section on my resume!) But itā€™s important.

The work I complete at my current internship may not have an eternal impact, but the relationships I form and the work ethic I cultivate do carry that possibility. Maybe I will write or edit for a Christian publication, but thatā€™s not necessarily my goal. I aim instead to work at everything as unto the Lord, regardless of whoā€™s paying my bills.

Maybe someday thatā€™ll bring me a well-decorated home with an attractive husband and two adorable children (and my cat ā€“ canā€™t forget the cat!). Maybe it wonā€™t, either. As difficult as it sometimes is to remember, those things arenā€™t my American dream. Faith is.

Purple rain, purple rain

Do you ever have days when you feel you donā€™t fit in your own body?

I was having one today. It wasnā€™t triggered by anything significant; I just felt funky, like I would never amount to anything. Though it didnā€™t qualify as a full-fledged anxiety attack, I felt a bit anxious about the future.

(Okay, Iā€™ve never had an anxiety attack. But still. I struggle with being a control freak. You know that.)

So what did I do?

I dyed my hair.

Okay, okay, that doesnā€™t solve anything, I know. But I did pray about my fretful inclinations as I worked the dye into my roots, and I was tired of my dishwater blonde hair. Itā€™s not like anyone can see what I look like when they get my resume, but feeling a bit more pulled together is one step in the right direction.

For better or worse, now Iā€™m a redhead instead of a dirty blonde. (I meant for it to be more brown with a hint of red, but whatever!)

Next upā€¦ I think itā€™s time for a haircut. (Hey, itā€™s like my own do-it-yourself makeover story.)

Hair color should NOT be comparable to dishwater.The bottle's open - eek!We're halfway done. Now I'm committed.Ewwie gooey!It looks almost goth here. :)This is what it's SUPPOSED to look like...This is what it does look likeTake it or leave it!

With watered down coffee and words of gold

I still remember the day I fell in love with coffee. It wasn’t all that long ago – only in March of 2001. During a week-long mission trip to Philadelphia, I was assigned to a group of coffee crazies. We stopped at Starbucks at least once a day (sometimes more).

The atmosphere of the coffee shop was alluring, but I had never gotten into the bean beverage itself. With as much time as we were spending in those shops, I felt I needed something to drink.

Finally, a friend walked me through choosing my first Starbucks experience. “Try the caramel frappucino,” she said. “It doesn’t have much coffee in it, and it’s really sweet. I think you’ll like it.”

Um, yeah.

A monster was born.

I believe this is where I drank my first Starbucks beverage.

Or began to evolve, at the very least. Later that trip I tasted a caramel machiatto, and thereby learned that hot coffee is also good. I began to dabble in home creations (Coffeemate Cinammon Vanilla creamer) and local coffee shops (Aristotle’s – bad coffee, great atmosphere; Javaheads – great coffee, poor atmosphere). Trips to the northeast were Starbucks treats. The closest we had to Starbucks was the Barnes & Noble “proudly serving Starbucks coffee” Cafe. It’s not the same.

During one of those NYC coffee jaunts, my aunt and sister spotted Peter Gallagher in line behind us. I was busy ordering my coffee (or caramel apple cider, as I believe it was that day). When I turned around, we had a very pleasant exchange about the play he was starring in, which we’d seen only days before. It was my first “famous person” coffee sighting, but it wouldn’t be the last.

Noises Off is really one of the best plays ever, just so you know.

My little brother doesn’t get out much – he’s eleven. So when I made a Starbucks run to get some writing done, I decided he should tag along.

I think I passed the coffee shop-a-holicism on to him, and at an early age. šŸ™‚ He thought it was the grandest thing – he got a kiddie hot chocolate and a snack of some kind. But don’t you worry – he also likes to sample whatever I’m having that day. “Mmmmm – but I won’t have anymore,” he says. “I don’t want to stunt my growth.”

It’s become something of a sibling tradition. When I’m in town, I always try to take him for coffee. It’s also at this Starbucks that he decided he wants to be a barista when he’s of age.

Wouldn't Chad look cute in a green apron?Bonus Bucks - Joyce and I visited this location when she was in town. This is one of my favorite places in Jacksonville.

Whenever my sister (Cristin) and I visited Birmingham, we made numerous Starbucks runs with our aunt. Cristin has been in search of Taylor, her latte boy, for years. (She would actually ask at each location if the barista’s name was Taylor.) She never found him, but she decided that Ricky the Mocha Boy would do.

This is probably my favorite Starbucks in the world.

When I spotted Ricky at the Starbucks that Alisa and I favored, I had to send Cristin a text message! Alisa and I made many a Sbx run (from 60 miles away) to use the gift cards her friends gave her before she left California. We chose the Vestavia location because it was closest, but its friendly baristas and open board games were also perks. I remember fondly an afternoon we spent just before I left for the summer… we played that board game for hours while we waited for a movie in the nearby theatre. It was an emotional day – but isn’t every emotion best accompanied by coffee?

It may not be the most interesting, but it holds some great memories.

I received the Starbucks award this summer from my fellow interns based on my love of coffee. A group of us met daily over French Roast and conversation. It was the perfect beginning to a morning, because there’s always time for a couple cups of coffee and friends. šŸ˜‰

I also enjoyed several cups of coffee at the Starbucks nearest our apartments. Jeremy and I would spend reflection nights first with Jesus, then discussing whatever was on our minds. Lara and I picked up French Roast stickers here. Heather, Jesse, Elis, John and I gabbed over coffee on a very rainy day. I even stole a bit of alone time here – a rarity during a summer project!

It ain't much to look at, but it was home.

In fact, I have memories attached to most Starbucks I’ve visited. (That may be due to my oddly detailed memory.) It’s oddly soothing to hold a cup of coffee in your hands, and therefore something I try to put into practice often. In fact, I’m sipping a homemade cappucino as we speak…

Honorable mention Starbucks:
Alisa's gonna kill me if I got the wrong picture
Who could forget Popular Genius Starbucks? It’s not every day your roommate drags you to the least convenient Starbucks near Nashville to see if a cute band guy is working.

This 'bucks really is rather large inside.
I was interviewing Tara Leigh Cobble at Starbucks when another celebrity sighting occured. Martina McBride walked past on her way to Smoothie King. She’s much harder to recognize without those digitally-enhanced blue eyes.

I don't remember it looking like this, but hey.
This Starbucks is half the reason Alisa and I hate Jackson, Miss. The other half is because Mississippi simply isn’t that interesting in the first place.

I promise you, I went to this site yesterday and he didn’t even have a link to Melbourne. Maybe he’s there right now, updating his site with the latest Starbucks information.
It seems the Starbucks where Amy, Megan, David and I spent a rainy Melbourne day is one of the few this guy hasn’t visited.

I owe Mark a little credit for a great idea. His journey through Starbucks is a fun read and includes many details more significant than mine.

Commitment, and everything that goes with it

Subtitle: For Alisa (because sheā€™s wrong) and Megan (because her imagination failed)

When itā€™s right, itā€™s right.

Itā€™s no secret that Iā€™m picky, and therefore no surprise that the search has lasted this long. I struggle with grace; where is it appropriate to extend mercy instead of demanding perfection? Are my expectations too high? But everyone says when itā€™s a match, youā€™ll know.

I made a command decision today. I walked down the aisle with confidence, and the decorum demanded of the occasion. I stepped toward the official, a smile on my face. My head was held high.

I bought a pair of shoes.

Aren't they cute? AND they were on SALE!

(So I prefer a stiletto to a stacked heel, and I still love the pointy-toed trend. But I think these are slightly off-beat and way more practical. Besides, theyā€™re Brazilian, and we all know that Brazil produces quality.)