The dreams that you dare to dream really do come true

I was waving my shaker in time with the cheers and music, but yesterday my mind wandered from football to depth in friendships. I stood watching the most important game of the year (to me) but I was thinking of how there’s something more.

Two days ago I had one of those lunches that you leave feeling rejuvenated. A friend and I caught up on the latest in each other’s lives, which is important, and we talked about football, which is important to me. But we also talked about faith and feminism and struggles and how we don’t have everything figured out.

I left feeling that more than just my physical hunger had been met.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about my relationships with other people. My very closest friends live miles away, and my friendships in town don’t yet go as deep. That means it’s easy to let things that matter go unnoticed or undiscussed, whether it’s a matter of faith or my own insecurities (or more likely, both).

But I’m feeling more optimistic than I have in a while, about relationships, football and life in general. It’s been years since I’ve stayed in one place longer than 12 months, but I think I’m there now. That eliminates a major barrier to being real, to allowing myself to feel comfortable. (I’m slow to commit, but once I do, I’m sold. That’s true for shoes and people.)

On this lazy Sunday morning, I feel good about life.

–Nov. 19, 2006, 10:40 a.m.

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  1. If you can cross over into that stage where you begin truly sharing yourself with those around you you’ll have accomplished quite a bit. I empathize with closest friends living miles away. That’s exactly where I am. It seems like ever since grad school (finished 4 years ago) I’ve had trouble settling (both physically and definitely emotionally) and accepting that this is where I am. I enjoy a great deal of “alone time”, but I think I’ve been a little too reclusive for quite a while now. Anyway, I’m rambling – but its just interesting because this is the very thing that’s been bothering me for a while….

    And I feel better about football as well – since we put the longhorns in their place.

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